living with pain.

December 9, 2009

This last month has been quite different than what I expected.  The back pain that I started experiencing in September has only gotten worse and now I am dealing with it daily.  I am back on call at work which means that on certain set days I have to be available and ready to go to the airport at any time. I am trying to squeeze in physiotherapy as much as I can but it’s hard when you can’t really plan in advance in case you get called in to work. The last thing I want to do right now is go to work.

The pain is getting pretty serious and I just don’t know what to do with it.  I am actually getting quite irritated with our health care providers in the sense that I feel let down. Everyone was very nice to me at the beginning, promising care and follow-ups. Now that I’ve been under care for over a month, I find myself to be brushed aside. Whenever I go to my treatments and tell them that there is no progress in my development, they inform me that only time will help and that I have to be patient and just rest as much as I can. The doctor suggested I take time off work until I am healed but offered no option for immediate pain relief. When your back is out and you are debilitated it is very insulting to have specialists tell you to suck it up and wait for it to all go away magically. I can’t live like this any longer and I need help. For real.

Has anyone else gone through this before?


what happens in Vegas…

November 2, 2009

Whoa! Times goes by so fast. I guess it’s a good indication that I’ve been busy doing too many things to notice.  November just begun and the weather is changing. It’s not winter yet but you can definitely feel it coming! As much as I complain about living in a country that puts me through miserable conditions 3 months a year, I still kind of enjoy this period. Before the minus 30s, it’s actually not so bad. It does not mean that I don’t enjoy getting away for a few days…

In October, my best friend and I decided to go to Vegas for a weekend to celebrate our almost 15 years of friendship. We have done some traveling together and have had quite the adventures (trust me on that one!) but never actually out of the country. So this was well overdue.

I decided to go to Montreal the day before our trip to spend some time with my sister and mother. What a delight. I love them so much.

The next morning, we got up at 6am to make our way to the airport. After a very long wait at customs, we finally got on the plane and were very happy to see that we got the emergency aisle seats. Hurray for more leg room! The flight was smooth and soon we were out on Nevada soil and on our way to The Tropicana. Very decent hotel with nice rooms and great location (next to MGM and the main arteries of the Strip).  We spent most of our time at the pool, getting some rays from the hot desert sun. We walked the whole Strip all the way to the Fashion Show Mall where I had to buy some lingerie at Victoria’s Secret.  We also visited the Miracle Mile Shops where I got myself two beautiful pinup dresses from the Bettie Page store. On our way we met Jerry Springer and Betsey Johnson. The latter was such an honour! She is just fabulous and so friendly. I am so happy to have been lucky enough to be there at the right time.  At night, we would just visit the casinos and tempt our luck at the poker and blackjack machines. I’ve played the tables before but this time around I just didn’t feel it.  It was a great weekend.

Then we had to leave. And this is where the nightmare begins.  Because of my job, we get incredible deals on tickets but it also means that we fly standby. And flying standby means that sometimes you have to have a Plan B and even a Plan C.  And that’s exactly what happened on that day. Our flight to Montreal was full so we automatically get bumped off of it and have to find another flight home. We wanted to get on the Toronto one but it was oversold also (it’s Vegas, it’s not surprising!).  So our only option was to go through Calgary and then catch the redeye to Toronto and fly to Montreal from there.  The whole thing was very chaotic and stressful and didn’t necessarily bring out the best in both of us let’s just say… Our friendship was strongly tested. I will spare you the details just to avoid being too partial on my part. I finally got home about 28 hours after we started in Vegas.  It was hell. I will definitely think twice before I bring a friend on vacation with me again, trust me!

Aside from that, Halloween was a success. This was our first time living in an actual house and on a main floor, so we really enjoyed decorating the front porch and dressing up to give candy to the kids. It is so much fun! I wish Halloween happened more than once a year. It’s definitely my favourite holiday.

So there you go, your recap for the last month.  Let’s see what the Holiday Season will bring next!


it’s getting hot in here.

September 28, 2009

As I mentioned in my previous post, this month marks our first year of marriage. Since we are still newlyweds, we allowed ourselves some serious celebration. We started it all off with the Queen of Rockabilly herself:  Wanda Jackson.

An intimate venue and a petite woman with such power in her. I couldn’t have asked for anything better to share with my partner.  We even got her to sign an 8×10 picture of her from the old days.  What a wonderful experience that was!

We spent the next night alone and had a delicious homemade dinner and some quality time. I love you buddy!

And just because we can and we get a little greedy, we decided to also go on a mini vacation to make the fun last just a bit longer. Direction: Jamaica.  We chose Hedo 3 after much research and reviews. We really wanted a place where we could just let loose and have fun without having to worry about anything. And honestly, there is no better place than Jamaica to leave all your worries behind.  Oh what a hot destination (and I don’t necessarily mean the weather)! If you have never heard of Hedonism you have to at least know right away that they are clothing optional resorts. The place is divided between the fully clothed pools and the nudist ones. Let me tell you that there was NOBODY on the fully clothed side! Most people who make the effort to go to such resorts are there to enjoy the perks of being naked. We didn’t know what to expect at first, but you are quickly introduced to the ‘anything goes’ policy. There are no rules at Hedo! You can even be in the pool and hottub all night if you wish! Just be aware that you are in prime time for all kinds of action.

I love the Jamaican attitude and especially the food. The weather was amazing and it was just divine to tan with no clothes on. Goodbye tan lines! (make sure you lotion up though or you’ll get an unpleasant surprise…) This was a very relaxing week  (5 days) even though I had some annoying back pain. Lying in the pool all day surely helps! The only flaws we found were the beach (they are very small and dirty in Jamaica unlike our beloved Mexico) and the food was a bit boring after the 3rd or 4th day. One very good perk was that compared to quieter resorts where the focus is mainly on day activities, Hedo has nightclubs and parties until the wee hours of the morning.

All in all, September was a month filled with love and good times.


So here I am again. Alone in a hotel room, bored as hell  (at least I have a laptop and internet in my room now!). Let’s just say that lately the job hasn’t been the most exciting thing in my life. I can only hold domestic flying and end up mostly in 3 cities: Vancouver, Edmonton and St-John’s. Not so glamourous eh? I am getting so sick of seeing these same places over and over again…

Despite all of this, last month I finally got my first layover downtown Vancouver (I usually stay at an airport hotel in Richmond). I had been to the city a few times on my own, but it was different to have a hotel paid for and some free time to shop and walk around. It was a beautiful day ( very telling of the summer they had) and I was more than happy to be on my own, just wandering the streets. I got myself a delicious burrito dinner at Steamrollers and a delightful cupcake from Cupcakes. Did a little bit of shopping and very much enjoyed my adorable colorful hotel room.

So my schedule has drastically changed since the same period last year. With the many layoffs and restructuring of the company that means that the most junior employees suffer the most. Just when we were staring to see the light at the end of the domestic flying tunnel, we got thrown back a thousand feet into it. It’s like when you have that dream where you walk but you are not actually moving forward. Yeah, that’s my career right now.

Then again, being a junior flight attendant also means being assigned things that I did not ask for (like 5am flights) but also getting things I would never get normally (like two long downtown Montreal layovers in the same week). And that actually made me very happy. I got to spend time with my best friend and my mom. Again, the weather was on my side and revisiting my hometown made me miss it oh so much. I love my life in Toronto, but it actually stung a little when I had to depart YUL this time. I truly felt sad that I was leaving this amazing place behind. I think it’s been long enough now that I’ve been gone, that I can start appreciating it again. I rediscover things I had forgotten about this metropolis.  My heart will always belong to it.

Yesterday I was in Chicago. I had never been there before so this was quite inviting. I wasn’t expecting much from that city, or mostly didn’t know what to expect at all. And I found myself to be quite fond of it.  Granted I was there in 29 degrees weather and not in winter…but still. Between the deep dish pizza and Oprah’s season kickoff show taking up most of the downtown streets, there wasn’t a lot of time left to wander (I only had half a day to walk around) so I tried to see as much as I could but I certainly need to come back on my own time and explore. By the way, what a stunning view it is to have a river running through the city!  And they take much pride in it. Also check out the architecture while you are there. It feels like you are in an old black and white gangster movie.

So I guess my job isn’t so bad after all. I tend to complain because I miss my American layovers and all the shopping. But I can’t forget that the little things are what matter most.

On a different note, this past weekend welcomed our first wedding anniversary and I can tell you I was quite pleased with it. The last year was such wedded bliss. I find we have grown so much already since getting married and I love the man more and more every day. I can’t emphasize any more how fortunate I am to have a partner, lover and best friend that complements me so well. Our story was not an easy one. We both had enormous baggage from previous relationships mixed with fear and caution, but we let our guard down and opened up to eachother and that made it work in the end. We try to stay connected to one another because it does make things less painful, trust me! I feel we are ready to move forward. Continue on the path we are slowly building together. We now have a foundation and that paves the way for new adventures.

So profess your love today. Tell at least one person what they mean to you and cherish that relationship. We need those people around us.