living with pain.

This last month has been quite different than what I expected.  The back pain that I started experiencing in September has only gotten worse and now I am dealing with it daily.  I am back on call at work which means that on certain set days I have to be available and ready to go to the airport at any time. I am trying to squeeze in physiotherapy as much as I can but it’s hard when you can’t really plan in advance in case you get called in to work. The last thing I want to do right now is go to work.

The pain is getting pretty serious and I just don’t know what to do with it.  I am actually getting quite irritated with our health care providers in the sense that I feel let down. Everyone was very nice to me at the beginning, promising care and follow-ups. Now that I’ve been under care for over a month, I find myself to be brushed aside. Whenever I go to my treatments and tell them that there is no progress in my development, they inform me that only time will help and that I have to be patient and just rest as much as I can. The doctor suggested I take time off work until I am healed but offered no option for immediate pain relief. When your back is out and you are debilitated it is very insulting to have specialists tell you to suck it up and wait for it to all go away magically. I can’t live like this any longer and I need help. For real.

Has anyone else gone through this before?

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